I'm not sure what would be worse, being lonely without truly knowing how it feels to not be lonely, or being lonely after having known for such a long time what it is like to have someone there, no matter what.
Both I'd say, but i'm not sure which one hurts more.
Just been having a very lonely day today, and im just so frustrated, i want to just burst into tears, i want to run away, i want school to be over, i want my life to feel like im alive and not just like im.. well just that im alive. Everyday is a blur, and i feel so tense thinking about it. I want to feel something, but i never feel anything. Im too scared to open up to anyone. But i desperately want to, but i am too content on being on my own, everyone screws me over eventually.